Confessions of a Traveling Male

This post isn’t by me- obviously. When Jeremy asked to write a guest post he- rightly, pointed out that my blog is somewhat lacking in the male perspective. While his experiences are very different from mine, I’m glad he chose to share such a personal story:

So here I am, a twenty-something solo traveler, gallivanting across the globe, gaining my worldly experience. And though I have been single for three years, I have made countless connections with countless women from all over the world. My relationship is with women everywhere.

I’ve never been the relationship type. Frankly, I’ve only had a couple of girlfriends in my lifetime, and only one of those was serious. And, yeah, that one? Well, it ended in a big fat fit of dysfunction. Ask my friends—they’ll tell you. Things got real weird there, for a while.

And then there were a couple more girls with whom I fell madly in love. So, how did those end? Well, you can answer that one. As I write this, I’m sitting on a train on the other side of the world. I left home two and a half years ago and I haven’t been back.

To be honest, half the reason I left home had to do with a girl.

But of course, there’s always a girl.

Some people call me a misogynist; some might call me a hopeless romantic. It depends who you ask and how well they know me. It’s a weird combination, on paper at least. But in real life, and in practice, it works. And it seems to work well.

As many men would say, I’ve been “gettin’ my flags.” And sure, yep, I’ve been doing that. I’m an independent person. And I’m a male. Cut me some slack.

But the truth is, and I don’t think I’m dispelling any myths here, men have feelings, too! It’s isolating, being on the road, traveling from town to city, country to country, meeting and bidding farewell to friends, connections and lovers.

(I hate that word, “lovers.” In actuality, though, that’s what they are. Were. Have been.)

It’s carefree and intoxicating, traveling like this. I have no commitments, nobody to answer to but myself. There’s no drama, no need to concern myself with who’s watching or whose feelings I might hurt because there’s a good chance that one of us will be leaving the other very, very soon. It’s brilliant, really. And it’s fun. Lots and lots of fun.

But then there are couples who travel together and who are so in love. And I wonder: Where did they meet? How did they become such perfect companions? It’s one thing to be in a relationship with somebody, it’s another to actually travel with them!

I’ve lost friends just by traveling with them, and learning that we simply weren’t as compatible as we thought.

No, it’s not easy being on the road alone. To the outside world, it’s the dream. And well, really, it is! (Queue sardonic laugh.) I’m 26 years old, working on a career which essentially allows me to be anywhere in the world. I get to be reckless, unsympathetic and carefree! I answer to no one. I’m friends with who I want, I sleep with who I want and I never have to explain myself.

I know. You wish you were me.

But, alas, it’s exhausting! Not because I’m fed up with the single life (I only slightly rue the day I get fed up with the single life), but because I have met a number of women with whom I have genuinely shared something special and unique with.

The sheer number of people I have encountered in the last couple of years is, well, insane. And I am picky and difficult to get along with! So when something special strikes me, I’m taken aback, and I treasure that connection.

I am an independent, strong and malleable person. I bounce back. So, in the end, inauspiciously, it’s no sweat if one of us leaves. There will always be another one.

Like I said, there’s always a girl.

But what if?

What if I stayed? What if I opened myself to the possibility of something real?

Ah, but, alas, I cannot. Because I have to go home. At some point. And thus I’m cast into forcible separation and singledom because I cannot reasonably allow myself to open up.

It’s a predicament, really. I am in a world of isolation yet I am the most social I have ever been in my life. To the women I have met, and even those I haven’t yet: I respect you, I love you and I cherish you. Really, I do. But unfortunately, it will never work.

I seem to fall in and out of love with every girl I meet, and I leave a piece of my heart with each and every one. Not in a pitiful way, but in a gracious sort of way. I am thankful for the impression that each and every woman makes on me, and the imprint she leaves, because that stays with me forever, and I will stay with them forever.

And now, remarkably, pieces of my soul have been scattered all over the world.

Born in America, Jeremy, an IT specialist by trade, packed up his belongings and left home on an open-ended trip to Australia. Two years later, he’s still on the move and exploring other countries. He is now a mobile cocktail bartender and the head writer for travelFREAK!

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Jaryd
Jaryd

I have been paddling down the same river in the same boat for 5 years now. It is a great lifestyle to live, however eventually it would be good to meet someone that can not just put up with your crap but also travel with you. I am sure someone exists, but also, it will only work if both are completely vulnerable to each other, which I think is quite hard for a traveller because being tied down frightens us

Alicia
Alicia

Thanks for this post Jeremy, I’m glad you’ve exposed one of the more confusing/darker sides of living abroad/traveling: LOVE. I think, I mean I would like to think, that every traveler ponders around these thoughts at least at some moment of their nomadic life. Once you first embark on your travel experience everything seems new, exciting and exhilarating, so many people to meet from around the world. Initialy you want to meet EVERYONE, because you’ve never really been exposed to this many people before. Every new person you meet allows you to learn something new about yourself and maybe from… Read more »

Magda
Magda

Thank you Jeremy.

I’m not a traveller (yet), but recently I fell in love madly with one. This article helps me realize that it was fun – and that I don’t have to be sad, because he might still love me too.

Thanks.

Alex
Alex

Jeremy, I really wanted to understand and appreciate this article, but I couldn’t! I tried… I felt like i was reading a travel hook-up article written by a frat boy. I want to understand you, Jeremy, and I really do believe you aren’t as “difficult” as you say you are, but your voice (as a narrator in this article) is hard to like. I think everyone can relate to your experiences in some manner, but It’s how you come across in this article that has me bothered. You have given me nothing but information about yourself. You tell me you… Read more »

Jeremy Foster
Jeremy Foster

Alex, I think you understand me better than you think. In some respects, it IS a hook-up article written by a frat boy. You would not be the first person to make that very same comparison about me. But it is also a piece, written from the heart, about the complications and contradictions in my life. So, if you are feeling like I have left you confused, then I feel as though I’ve conveyed my point quite nicely. I do enjoy a care-free lifestyle, but I also appreciate, greatly, my experiences. I have met a couple of women in my… Read more »

Neil Skywalker
Neil Skywalker

Jeremy, I understand have to be nice to your readers. Well, I don’t.

ALEX, stop being a whiny drama queen.

Brittany
Brittany

I approve this message 😀 ! Tell him Neil!

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